I'ts the end of Basketball life in AES.

Where's Mr Right?

True love does exist and i hope my love do last like that picture on the top.

I wanna walk on Snow with somebody i love.

One day i will find my Mr right, who will love me wholeheartedly and love me for who i am.

The love of my life.

Have you ever felt that no one is there for you, to support you and to cheer you up when you're down? 

Life: There will be ups and downs. It will sometimes be a thrilling experience or a sad experience. It will be like sitting on a roller coaster.

My main point of blogging today will be about the word LOVE.

Love, it may be a simple word but it does represent in many ways. I may not know what Love really means yet as i'm still not mature in Love but one thing is for sure is that you can't cheat if you wanna engage yourself into a relationship. Base on my experiences, i do have JERKS, yes i repeat JERKS. All they do is leave as they please and come back if another girl dont want them. They should really bang wall and just die la. Yea, i hate guys who also think that they could get any girl. Why cant Love be like in the past? Where people dont cheat during a relationship. As time passes, even teenagers at the age of 10 and above will get pregnant, why? They give in too easily without thinking about their future and their parents, they gave up their life  for that one moment. You see, how people change from time to time? Writing letters to one another and not sending text messages to tell a person how they feel, where does all the sincerity go to? For me, i really appreciate people who write letters to me, it really enables me to feel what they really feel and most importantly their sincerity when they write the letter and the time taken to write it. I believe that there are guys in this world that are not JERKS and girls that are bitches. I believe that there are some who are waiting for their one and only true love. Sometimes, people did not want to get into a relationship because they want to find that someone who could spend their lifetime together. Yes, im one of them. I dont choose guys randomly, i might hold on for too long, i dont know who is yet to be my True Love but im waiting. One thing is for sure that i dont want to be engaged into a relationship now because i just want to focus on my studies and also basketball. Since young, mommy always tell me that i have to find a job to support them before finding a boyfriend. I head her advice and i hope you will head it too. But at some times, my heart will softened whenever there's sweet talks, one of my weaknesses is sweet talks, i might fall into guys sweet talks but i would like to see actions more than just saying it. Showing it is one way to proof that you really like that girl right? 

From what i said previously, JERKS change girls like changing clothes, thinking that they could get any girl, why not go geylang? So many girls to pick there sua. Girls have feelings too, you cant drop them whenever you get bored of them cos in the first place, why did you take the first step of making her your girlfriend when you want to drop her when you get bored? Haiz, JERKS. 

I have my expectations, maybe a high one.

YEA i went to KOREA, that's all bye bye! :> Too lazy to blog. BUT I LOVE THE COLD WEATHER THERE! AWESOME YEA ;>

I have no doubt that i have the best parents in the world.

The story of my parents

A true life story of my life ''My hero, my father.''

I wanna say about my father. I've heard things in the past about my father from my mother and i would like to share with all of you. After i've heard from my mother, it really hurts me and felt super lucky that he is my father. My father is a very very strong person. When im in p4 or p5, my father's ''spare-part'' shop declared bankrupt and my parents and I had a very hard time to be who we are now, standing super proud and tall. My dad have been working for the ''spare-part'' shop for almost his whole life but it have been closed down. My father, on that day onwards, have lost his confidence in doing buisnesses. Why? cos'when his friends/customer know that he's bankrupt, everything ran away, didnt want to help my father. Why? Because they only go to my father when they needed help and when my dad needs help, they ran away, that's why fake friends are everywhere. My father treasures the ''spare-part'' shop very much, when it's close down, he cried non-stop at my previous house when im not at home but in school. That's what my mommy told me. Do you know how it feels to see your father cry? It hurts damn bad. Just by hearing it today from my mom about this, really do hurts me alot. No one every wants to see their father cry right? When my dad was bankrupt, he asked help from my chinese relatives but who is there for him? No one, all are just scolding him and did not want to help him. That explains why im not so close with my chinese relatives now. My dad was also a very kind-hearted man, he did buisnesses with other companies, did his job well but one of the company cheated on him and did not even pay him back till today. Despite all these, he still did not give up, he conitnue to fight till today, he is still fighting for the better. My fahter may seem like a weak person, but to my mother and I, he is the strongest person in this world. My dad, now working as a taxi driver at his age is no joke. At this age, he should already retire, but still for the sake of my mother and i, he want to give us a good life by going shopping, enjoying ourselves outside. My dad, have to always wake up at 6am and work till night and only slept at 2am which is 4hrs of sleep everyday in never enough for him. I really pity my father, how i wish i could grow up now as soon as possible. When im still a child, im still in need of a maid, my mother keep saying things like asking my dad to hire a maid but we did not have enough money, i really really understand how my father feel at that time. when we reached home, when im not at home, my dad went to his knees infront of my mother, crying, asking her and telling her to please understand his pain. Just by seeing this or imagining it, it pains me. I really didn't know this in the past. Recently, this year around 1month ago, when im about to go to school, suddenly the car broke down but fortunately we are able to drive to choa chu kang petrol kiosk and ask people to troll the car. I only think about myself at that time, i kept rushing my dad and say things like ''walao'', i was dang stupid. My dad hurriedly called the people to troll the car and there's one sentence that touched me which is ''我的女儿要上学'' and i slowly see tears forming in my eyes. I really can feel the pain in his heart. My mommy say that after we declared bankrupt at the court, he really really want to give up everything, lost hope but she told me something.. My dad in the end didnt gave up cos' its because of me. He is a dad that no one could ever ever ever replace him. Though even now, when my dad is alone at home, my dad will also secretly cry, he didnt want to show his tears anymore and kept everything in his heart. what does this means? He loves me... alot. Everyday, he puts a smile on his face when he comes home like nothing has happened. Fake smiles? actually deep inside he has lots of problems like paying for the house, electric bills, handphone bills, internet bills, etc. That's why im going to work one of the days this year, wanna give my first pay check to my parents. That is what i called.. my hero, my father. 
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''The best woman in the world, my mother''

My mother was born a fillipino but people treat her like shit, and it really do pissed me off. Just because of her race and she's not a singaporean and people just treat her like this? Who do you think you are? Queen/ King/ President of the universe? If that's the case, i salute you but if you're not, you watch when i get older, get a good job, marry a good husband, i will step over to those who bullied my mom and my dad too. After my dad's shop closed down, my mommy find ways to support our family and go on with our lives. My mom didnt work at all eversince my parents get married however when things get rough, she has to find a job. She didnt really know what is salary and did not really get along with people in Singapore as she's from other countries, but who's stopping my brave mom? No one, she will run as far as she can. My mom worked in KFC for her first job, i can tell you the manager treat her like a shit, a SHIT. She told me story that on her first day of the job, the manager always picked on her, asking her to do all the dirty jobs, treating her like a fcuking maid on her first day. But she still continued going for work, each day the manager scolded her without fail and things gets even rougher day by day. She cried while making pancakes cos' she have not felt this kind of ''treating people like maid'' feeling before. If one day i saw this manager next time, im so gonna step on her. Nvm, karma will help. So what if manager? Manager of KFC no cake, anyone can be. So my mommy quitted her job at the 4th day cos she cant stand it anymore. My mom searched on the newspaper for a job and found a toddler teacher, she applied for the work and got accepted as a normal teacher. She love kids, alot. She loves taking care and teaching babies. She loves her job so much that she even go for the course for further studies about toddler teacher, it was like a few months course, it was not cheap at all. When she received the course certificate that she passed the course, she was dang happy, super super happy, i have never seen her like this happy for quite some time. she wanted to tell her manager the next morning when she go for work. But guess what? A teacher betrayed her which is one of her close friend working with her, there was an incident of giving the baby the wrong milk. When the manager asked who did that and the teacher pushed the blame on my mother when she did not do anything wrong and she wasn't aware of this incident. My mother's plan of telling the manager that she passed the course has totally crashed. the manager even scolded my mother infront of so many teachers. On that day, my mother gave a resination letter. when the manager know the truth that my mother did not do that, it was already too late. I really really wish that those who pushed the blame and bullied my mom should just bang wall. Fake friends are everywhere, yeah?? I really hope that teacher is still feeling very guilty now. But this things doesn't stop her, in order for us to live a good life, she searched for a job at the newspaper again, now, she is working as a kindergarden main teacher. Now, she really really do enjoys her work, with no one bullying her, and she has two assistants working for my mother, they are very good friends, at least they did not backstab my mother. She bought stuffs like sweets, chocos, potato chips for the children everyday. Teaching and dancing with them was like a very fun routine for her. All these obstacles she faced, she overcomed it with all her courage, i salute her as my mother. No one will every replace my mother. Even now, though money is quite a problem, she will give or buy me presents and clothes, phone whenever i need or want them, so long as im happy, she's happy too. Recently, my art exam the development part im not able to complete and i only slept at 1am and my mom helped me to continue with 2 other drawings and slept only at around 3am despite that she is having work tomorrow. She sacrificed for me.. though she was tired, she still continued helping me.. This love is so powerful.
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Yes, i must admit that some point of he time, i disrespect my parents, talk back at my parents, after i did all that, i can always feel the guilty within me. I always think about myself, i didnt think about my parents. My parents.. without them, im never who i am now. In primary school, i used to be a student who dont study, had many tuitions but didnt cherish every lessons, the fees are burning holes from my parent's pockets. It's like im going for tuitions for the sake of going. tuition doesnt help me, i failed most of my exams and that explains why i get low marks for my PSLE, i didnt study. But there's one thing i promised to myself after PSLE that i could even remember up till now for the sake of my parents, cos that is the only thing that i could do for my parents, for the very least. I promised God that i will change, to be a good student, listen to class and get good grades and try to get first in class, and yes, i studied hard, i got first in class and even get first in the whole 3 NA classes, it changed my whole life. I used to be one of the last position in Primary school, calling myself stupid and Zooooom, there i go, first! Lesson learnt: Do not give up till you succeed. When my parents heard that i got first they was very very surprised, even i myself too. God hears my prayers, he's always watching over my family. And here i am, i moved up one level, became an express student. there were lots of obstacles, like fighting over positions and competitions gets tougher, everyone was like fighting for the first position. I got 11th position in my mid-year exam this year, it was quite a good thing. But there's one thing that made me disappointed. Eversince i moved up, i take studies for granted and take studies too lightly, and now, im starting to get bad results again. Being a Basketball captain makes it even stresser. But for the sake of my parents, i will never ever give up.

Cherish the people around you, especially your parents as they know best of you. Without them, you wont be here, standing proud and tall, they who make you who you are. 

I love you, papa& mama. Daeeeeebak