Dang everything.

I really dont know what to feel right now.. SAD ? Happy ? Disappointed ?

I didnt get to play for the very last match cos'i came late. I thought by playing just for a little while in the match could actually cheer me up but to no avail, I DIDNT EVEN PLAY A SINGLE SHIT. My mood has became even more shitty and getting irritated by everything. Keep forcing laughters, smiles and the way i talk to make it sound like im okay to my parents. I dont want them to worry. SCREW IT.
My heart is so so so painful...