Everything changed after I became an express student. It became a more stressful life than ever. I, becoming a captain of Basketball make life even more stressful for me. Studies? My mid-year paper is like completely SHIT MARKS. I didn't pass the goal i made for myself. I've got only 1 A which is Chinese, both of my mathes FAIL. I dont even know whether i can promote next year. After Sec 2, i became even more slack, didn't really care about studying and doing homeworks, didn't take School lessons seriously. Everyone changed, everything changed. I guess life is making me feel difficult. The only things that could make me cry now is, parents and BASKETBALL.
Last friday, the last day of school holidays training, 3 girls walked out during training as they felt training was too tough. Yes, coach might be quite bias towards Jurong, saying us names like SP(Stupid), always praising Jurong Sec but at least he still came to train us. I don't know what happened to the girls basketball team, everything is falling apart. I have even planned to quit basketball because of this selfishness in my teammates but I didn't want to, i decided to give it another try, wanting to make girls strong again. Am i being too nice to the Basketball girls till they are taking advantages of me? Some of them might not respect me, yes, i understand but i don't wanna see girls falling apart. Trainings have been super tough, even tougher than the boys i can say but it's for our own good. In my whole 3 years in AES, i always wanted to get into West zone Top 4, but all i get is? SHIT. My goal for next year is to get at least West Zone if not im gonna leave AES with regrets. But if my teammates are not putting in the effort and hardwork into trainings, what the shit i can do? Today, my two juniors did not listen to what i have said to them, asking them to rest because they are injured. In the end, both of them and i got punishment, running Road-relay in school and have to come back within 4 mins for every round. I dont mind them not respecting me and listening to what i say, but all i need is their listening ears. I don't know what i could do now.... Have you ever wished you can be a small little child again? Well, i do.
My studies are getting from bad to worst. I have never failed maths in my whole entire life in AES, but now? What happened to me? Everything is dropping, I dont know why am i being like this too. Why is life so hard for me?
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